Wednesday, January 20, 2010

hard days of my life..

16th jan 2009, the day i thought would change my career, it really did actually,
made me think once again of what i was aspiring,
i believe its not my world actually,
may be perhaps i wouldn't have written these words if i would have gone through the recruitment,
may be my bad luck made me think of my heart once again.....
now at this point of time i swear i am much more happier than actually i would have been if i was through it.,
its not my world and at any cost, i don't want to live it.

coming to the actual exam, the written was actually a crap, any good 10th class student would have easily gone through it and clear it comfortably,
but i had waited for the results till 8 in the evng, went back to ma room and started preparing for the techie round. first time i guess studied till 1:00 A.M in the night woke at04:40 in the morning, kept myself busy and the crappy "C" made me sick,
17 jan 2009
however to the best of my knowledge i did it a good way, not very good as i was a bit nervous but still satisfactory i guess, and waited for the management round, waited and waited and waited, after a lots of anticipation , feeling sad for couple of people around me, there was a sort of ambiguity in the situation,
lots of rumors about the intake, lack of correct planning in the prosedure of selection, at last i was sent back rejected, i am rejected because they felt i ain't good enough......
hmmm
what to say came to ma room, took a fresh breath of nicotine and went into deep thought of mine, thinking of my future, where i stand in this world,

"THE WORLD HAVE NO REASON TO KNOW WHO I AM ,, BUT I HAVE THE RESPONSIBILITY TO SHOW THE WORLD WHO I AM"

i believe in myself no matter what others think of, u will be watching the best of me in the forth-coming days & years
watch out for me

Friday, December 25, 2009

Anna gaaru, Reddy garu kalisthe!!!!

Conversation Between YSR and NTR in HEAVEN
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YSR : (with NTR) Annagaru! What a pity! What’s happening for Andhra Pradesh?

NTR: Brother! I’m also worried. We wouldn’t have let this happen if we were there. I think it’s the game of Karma.

YSR: What is Karma?

NTR: It’s the supreme program of The Creator. Every soul and every living entity is programed by divine design.

YSR: May be…and coming back to the situation in AP, this is not the movement that took roots from people. It’s clear selfish desire of a few politicians. Hence I never encouraged. From time to time I used several means to dilute it. Am I right?

NTR: You are absolutely right, brother! I kept track of everything that you did. That’s good. You did your part with perfection. Even I tried to keep all Telugus united even, proposing change of name Andhra Pradesh to Telugu Nadu. Had that was done, this wouldn’t have happened. Telugu Atmagouravam would stand high only when the state is called ‘Telugu Nadu’. World sits up and takes notice of the language Telugu is spoken in Telugunadu. The identity of Telugus will be supreme then.

YSR: Yes, Annagaru! That should happen. Let us appeal to Lord Indra to sow a seed in High Command’s head.

Lord Indra: What leaders! What are you discussing?

YSR And NTR: Namo Indra Namo Namaha

YSR: We are discussing about the plight of the soil, from where we left our bodies recently.

NTR: Why this pitiable condition in Andhra Pradesh now? Is this the game of Karma?

Indra: Situation wouldn’t be like this when the King (CM) is strong. When you both were Kings for your people in respective terms, they were living in confidence. And the politicians around never dared to play games for their selfish reasons. YS! Your successor)Rosiah is not able to create confidence among people. And hence selfish politicians are wagging their tails.

NTR: Did YS committed mistake by encouraging Rosiah as next to him in Cabinet?

Indra : No, not all. The people are also assuming that. But it’s not YS who encouraged him. It’s not YS who made him next to him. It’s the Karma of Rosiah that made it. Rosiah was a loyal subordinate to his bosses and masters from many births. His loyalty knows no boundaries. In some births he even sacrificed his life for the wellbeing of his bosses. His soul is god-fearing and never did anything against to his boss. That we call, ‘swamy bhakti’! He did his dharma more than required. He never did things for people who became strangers to him, but he did everything for bosses. When he became the boss it was because of ill-fate that awaited his boss but not as a choice of his people. Karma used his boss as a tool to balance the equation.

YSR: And that’s me….

Indra: Yes. The credit goes to Karma, but not you.

YSR: Then why did I leave my body in copter crash?

Indra : Karma of your past again. You were a warrior king a few centuries back and Indra you killed your enemies in ghastly way using fireballs. It’s a payback.

YSR: Is killing enemy, a mistake, whatever be the means..?
Indra: Nothing wrong! And Karma also never finds mistake in paying back, whoever be the sufferer on other side. But you got swargam now since you did your dharma as warrior by killing enemy. Had you killed a friend or innocent for selfish reason, you would go to narakam. That’s the only difference. Leaving the body with more pain or less pain- that makes no difference for soul’s voyage.

NTR: Then what about me?

Indra: You had no karmic relation with physical violence you did to your enemies or friends. But you had got some Karmic bond with mind game you played with a few in past lives. Hence you left body with mental agony. Karma used your son-in-law as a tool. The sin that touched your son-in-law is related only to his political desires but not to your death.

NTR: Indra! I understood. Gone are our days. We are less worried about our deaths anyway. We wish that our state gets the name ‘Telugunadu’. What do you say?

Indra: (laughs) Only Karma should manifest it. I’m helpless. When the majority Telugu speaking people, show their pride with unity and integrity to the Kings and Emperors around you (State Ministers and High Command), then Karma automatically manifests for the change. None can stop that. But the initiation should come from people. They should stop fighting and love peace. They should value their soil and language. Karma showers sweetness only where there is love and peace. Karma bestows higher place than heaven only when it witnesses love and peace. Lord Brahma sends prophets, sages and saints as his messengers to propagate the same, to make people open the gate of their body for eternal emancipation of soul. Your wish comes true, when your people stop fighting. Otherwise, I don’t know what bitterness is in store with Karma, the program written by Lord Brahma.